it SHOULD be a good beginning.
i said, it SHOULD be~
i know you all wondering what i was thinking just now.
actually nothing.
i mean i HOPE there is nothing.
so i kept doing my mathematics exercises.
let myself busy and forget everything.
i shut up my mouth and try to focus on the questions,
stop laughing,stop talking,stop thinking of that.
because i know i will cry if i continue to act like i don't care.
i want to thank the one sit beside me.
do you know why?
because you telling me the truth.
i do not mad on you nor everyone of them.
i just need some time to be rational.
honestly,
the moment you told me,
i felt very angry and think that this can't be forgive!
but,after some time,
i start to think due to the positive side.
i should be thankful.
i should thank for all of your concern and care to me.
but why?
why all of you do not telling me the truth?
why all of you made this as a joke?
why all of you are my friend?
i really no idea with what i am thinking now...
my emotion and intellect are not under my control now...
i rather you all just straight to the point radar made it as a joke!
i am so disappointed and hurt. :(
do you know that not everything can be a joke?
do you know that not everyone can accept this as a humor?
a beautiful day ruined by a meaningless temper.
all of this is my problem.
all of this start with my problem.
sorry, i really can't withstand my emotion.
sorry for my temper.
sorry for all.
today,
1/8/2013
we built a wall between us...
i hope i can break down that wall one day.
i hope i can... T^T
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trying to find somebody to cry for,
but there is no one...
2 comments:
Whatever u meet in your life now, its help you to grow up,
Be cheerful, be strong, but i understand that sometime we also need time to let our-self precipitation.
But after that, please stand up and face to sun, that is not a big matter under sun.
And, don't forget our teacher is always together with us. While u cry, he is beside you, he is hug you, please feel it.
my red shirt also had the words "nothing special under the sun" hahah...:)
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