矛盾·顿悟·错误？

刚刚在补习班
以为姐姐无端端地从椅子跌下来
正当全部人都在嘲笑她时
她弟弟却把整个场面变得很僵
你相信吗？
一个年仅7岁的弟弟竟然为了姐姐不让人嘲笑
说出了
“ooi!itu kakak saya!jangan kamu ketawa!dia tu kakak saya!kalau ketawa siap kamu!”
笑场变得冷场
我不知道该如何是好
他姐姐的表情也变成了木纳
其实
那位姐姐并不介意，自己更是觉得自己可笑
但是却因为她弟弟突如其来的反应给呆着了

我当时真的很矛盾
第一，我觉得他们幸灾乐祸是不好，但是弟弟口出狂言更不应该。
第二，我挺欣赏那位弟弟维护姐姐的精神，但是他的方法确实是用错了。
所以，我究竟该不该批评他们的行为呢？
最后，我选择了沉默……
本以为此事件后，他们关系应该会僵硬一阵子
玩玩没想到的是，小孩的友谊也太强大了吧！
现在想了想，刚刚的却是应该做出一定的教导。
我刚才没适当的教育他们，我是不是做错了什么呢？

去补习之前，我一直希望快快拿工钱。
我必须拥有每个月一次的满足感！！！哈哈……
可惜……还没拿=，=
没关系～因为这份工教会了我许多。
前所未有的成就感，失落感
都尝遍了。
现在才发觉，原来满足感，成就感，失落感
种类繁多！！！
哈哈～
这世界，多么美丽。
这感觉，多么美妙！
我喜欢这有起有落的一段路。

countdown : 21 days...

无聊

突然发现一件事
无意间的发现

人家吃早午晚餐
应该都是在享受食物
可是我却是满脑子问题
而且还是些奇奇怪怪的正经问题=。=

就像昨天
我竟然边吃面边在
脑里思考：
面子书适合小学生使用吗？
现今社会适合让小孩早接触及电子产品吗？
我真的很认真的去想哦～
直到我吃完。。。然后就不想了 ><

之后
吃饭时
我却又在想：
要如何把一家餐厅经营得体体面面，生意兴隆呢？
还有很多很多～～～～～

于是
我得了一个结论：
只要我头脑闲着，就会突然冒出一些问题，让我思考。
我头脑对我太好了！T.T

1201am till 0112am

its just a start of 18/2/2014 now...
since i had long time not visit and post something on this blog
i decided to write something sincere from my heart
its doesn't mean all i write before is fake
but this time...
all of these really made my day...urgh!

i really dislike CHINESE NEW YEAR 2014!!!!
although i got my 1st salary in my life right before CNY
but i had felt there is something lost for this year...
and i don't even know what is it~!
i don't feel no more happiness and joys when i received angpau,went visited relatives' house
what's on my mind is just a horrible and terrible agony

all troubles came out after SPM
i also realize that i changed a lot
is this call "grew up"?
or just a personal mentally changes?
its february now
where should i continue my further education?
1 of my friend had start her course at kl,
1 go to australia this few days,
2 go to singapore on april,
some go to private university....
how about me?
must always say NO to private...but so difficult to enter government university...haiz
should i study form 6? i really really really resist it before and of course for now too...
or i just let my dream just a dream and go singapore take nursing course for free?
or i just stop pursue my aspiration to become a teacher and accept the offer to become a pharmacist?engineer?architect?
and what is my status now?
a student?a tutor?a unemployed?or just a lazy person that always stay at home?
why suddenly money become so important to me?
i know money is not everything...
but it still is something...something i needed..
i need it for studies
i need it for my needs
i don't want use any money from my parents for my further study
but how?is it enough?how to make it enough?

analyzing data....
want to be a teacher? sure~
go form 6 lo.... don't want!!!!
then how leh? wait for the miracle happen .... *punch!*
how if there still do not has any news at may? where can i go? from 6 and wait for june and july intake of my "dream university"...... :(
how if they don't choose me? do i still want to continue study form 6? if no,why choose to start study form 6?just want to know is form 6 study can handle by me or not...
if can't?don't want lo...take other course... if can?continue form 6 life...then think again 2 years later~
haiz...hopefully this won't happen to me... get me away from form 6!!!!


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i will be 18th this year...i want to slim down! seriously...hahahaiz
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其实去古晋回来，我有写一篇超长篇
只是有些事，儿童不宜～哈哈哈 jkjk
最近才发现我少上了blog,却多写了日记。
要想的事，变多了吗？
还是，发现自己越来越不是自己想变成的自己呢？