Nowadays, many people do not know each other but they like to judge them without any deep understanding about others. Well, not even ourselves understand ourselves. So, before I forget who am I, I decide to write it down.
I am the person who haunted by failure. I could not say that I failed more than you ever tried but i might said that I am afraid of failure much more than you guys do. That's why I always work hard on something just try not to fail. Alert that "not to fail" is totally different with "success". "Success" means you have get the highest achievement after complete the work while "not to fail" means that you achieve the minimum target with the least satisfaction.
You might think that I am relax with my studies but the truth had prove it wrong. When you said I can understand easily all the topic discussed but you never think that how many midnight oil I had burned just want to get know what I should learn. I just have more determination. A little bit determination. Someone had ever told me that success is belong to ordinary person with extraordinary determination, maybe that's why I been inspired.
Anyway... failure doesn't corrupt your future but it does help you build your future. We all learn from the past, is it? Experiences and knowledge can be gain from mistake. Appreciate it.
#spirit of cockroach!
Monday, November 2, 2015
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
cosh 6/10/2016
COSH stand for "Conference of Occupational Safety and Health"
i enjoy every second at there.
there is many activities, exhibition and speech that open to public.
i join the speech with the title " empowering your skill without competency" and "who is SHO? challenges and opportunities".
finally i found my reason why i want to be a safety and health officer.
"i may change the fate of a person to lose their love one."
this is what i set on my mind after the talks.
everyone is working on risk, but we as a SHO can prevent the occurrence of the hazard and minimize the risk expose.
i am glad i found my reason after 1 year i study the course, not too late is it?
before i study this course, i never know something like this.
after i study it, i interest on it, not because of the opportunities offered in market, but the challenges that i would face.
seriously, i never think of the salary i will get in this area, i am thinking of what is the responsibility that i need to care.
after joined the conference, i learned something new, something that i only read on note but never practice before. i love it.
keep learning no matter what, do anything just for the knowledge.
besides, it is the first time i met with many people that work in safety and health. i just feel like there is still has someone outside there that same as me. i am not alone...i have my other family.
they are not hesitate to share their knowledge with me too, i feel grateful.
one day, i will be one of them, a successful one.
keep on, keep spiritual!
i enjoy every second at there.
there is many activities, exhibition and speech that open to public.
i join the speech with the title " empowering your skill without competency" and "who is SHO? challenges and opportunities".
finally i found my reason why i want to be a safety and health officer.
"i may change the fate of a person to lose their love one."
this is what i set on my mind after the talks.
everyone is working on risk, but we as a SHO can prevent the occurrence of the hazard and minimize the risk expose.
i am glad i found my reason after 1 year i study the course, not too late is it?
before i study this course, i never know something like this.
after i study it, i interest on it, not because of the opportunities offered in market, but the challenges that i would face.
seriously, i never think of the salary i will get in this area, i am thinking of what is the responsibility that i need to care.
after joined the conference, i learned something new, something that i only read on note but never practice before. i love it.
keep learning no matter what, do anything just for the knowledge.
besides, it is the first time i met with many people that work in safety and health. i just feel like there is still has someone outside there that same as me. i am not alone...i have my other family.
they are not hesitate to share their knowledge with me too, i feel grateful.
one day, i will be one of them, a successful one.
keep on, keep spiritual!
this is my first time go to PICC too~! the view is so nice and i just cant stop to be excited! i even get lost inside there...haha
learn the way to wear safety harness...read is not the only way to learn, should practice it!
vision test by MSU... thanks to all of them because never tired of answering my questions.
my result of vision test, quite normal except i have different power of each eye. thanks kak azira for the explaination that i asked for a long time. wish to meet you again kak.
i asked the person why there are so many different color of coverall available. he said that because everyone has their own favorite color. =,=
from behind to the front: resistant of heat(silver), prevent the sting of bees(white), resistant of electricity(grey),multi purpose coverall(orange), coverall that can keep us warm even at -2 degree celcius(blue) and me...hihi
nothing much...i just enjoyed the moment and i increase my confidence again. i always be confidence when i think i have something inside myself.
thank you osh club~
thank you... ^^
if you fail to plan, then you plan to fail.
Thursday, August 6, 2015
虽然。。。但是
我虽然不完美
但我却是唯一的
我虽然不漂亮
但我拥有自信心
我虽然不聪敏
但我能自由思考
我虽然不敏健
但我仍四肢健全
我虽然不温文
但我能体贴有礼
我虽然无法拥有全世界
但我拥有亲情和友情
我虽然不能拥抱全世界
但我能学会如何给予
生活虽然无能事事都如意
但我却拥有感恩的心
生活虽然充满挑战和坎坷
但我却学会坚强毅力
人生，
并没有所谓的完不完美，
就只是在于你看世界的角度。
而有些时候，
感恩竟然是来自无法表达的埋怨。
感恩，至少还有东西好埋怨。。。
但我却是唯一的
我虽然不漂亮
但我拥有自信心
我虽然不聪敏
但我能自由思考
我虽然不敏健
但我仍四肢健全
我虽然不温文
但我能体贴有礼
我虽然无法拥有全世界
但我拥有亲情和友情
我虽然不能拥抱全世界
但我能学会如何给予
生活虽然无能事事都如意
但我却拥有感恩的心
生活虽然充满挑战和坎坷
但我却学会坚强毅力
人生，
并没有所谓的完不完美，
就只是在于你看世界的角度。
而有些时候，
感恩竟然是来自无法表达的埋怨。
感恩，至少还有东西好埋怨。。。
Monday, August 3, 2015
3 august
smile and confidence are the most valuable treasure
we can own a world by owning them
i ever try to convince someone with my words
try to motivate them
try to increase their confidence
they are motivated and confident at last
but they never know i lack of confidence at certain time
even though when i try to help them
confidence are not build in a short duration
it builds by giving and receiving
giving out the positive energy
receiving all the nature phenomena
accepting all the ups and downs then convert them into the source of spirit
after all...when you make a mistake or facing the failure again
it will just reset to zero
which means everything you have did are nothing now
this happened to me two years ago
so i think i know how it feels like
if you have confidence
automatically you will have a shinny smile on your face
we can gain back confidence exactly the way we lost it
physical appearance, intelligent, family background and so on
the world may not belongs to us but we can change the world by smile and confidence
of course with great attitude and be grateful
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
SEM 2 FINISHED
部落客就是一个自己写给自己看爽的地方
其实是想分享
但又要保密一点的心态
所以我今晚又来啦
diploma in occupational safety and health (dosh) semester 2 finished.
mission accomplished for this semester!
forget the final,
forget the result,
lets talk about me,talk about what i faced in these 4 months ^.^
do you still remember that i ever said i am regret to be there?
CUCMS... i ever regret to be there...i say ever...
but after what i had gone through these few months,
especially this semester, i had changed my point of view.
what had convinced me with this college?
many factors but not the management.
for your information, i am surrounding by Malays which i am the only Chinese girl in this course.
i really uncomfortable with these at first. although i have many Malay friends but i had never experience few months or may be few weeks without speak mandarin. as the time had gone, i realized something. i found that some of them really take care about me. for those who had learned mandarin in primary school, they even try to speak mandarin with me (they are Indians and Malays)...i really appreciate it for making me felt that i am not alone at there. touched~
in this semester too, i felt being love and respect. i don't know whether it is my "faulty feeling" or not,
i just felt that the seniors are treating me like their sister more than a friend or junior. i like this, these made me felt that we are one huge lovely family. i did feel in this way because my same course friend had ever told me so and i did feel the difference. erm...or this is because i am the "special" species in this course so they treated me so? but i hope that it is my own personality and the comfort ability made it so.
then, i saw some changes on somebody. their spirit had made me energized. their spirit to change positive and taking serious in education are the most encourage me to find out what make them change. next, i found that i also had few changes of myself. first, i start don't really care with what i care so much before. it is not because i do not obey my principle but it just like there is a thing which is more valuable to care about and it makes no differences too if i care so much which can make me hurt myself at last,right?
other than the knowledge gained,i think i had improved psychologically. i am trying to accept something by magnified the pro than the con...but not all...just something that i ever hide or "delete" it from its pro...*i hope somebody will understand what i try to say...haha* after i went through something and get know somebodies, i had made out a statement "sometimes there is no wrong or right in such situation, it just about the comfort ability and suitability. "
excited to turn semester 3~~~
anxious with what will coming soon.
其实是想分享
但又要保密一点的心态
所以我今晚又来啦
diploma in occupational safety and health (dosh) semester 2 finished.
mission accomplished for this semester!
forget the final,
forget the result,
lets talk about me,talk about what i faced in these 4 months ^.^
do you still remember that i ever said i am regret to be there?
CUCMS... i ever regret to be there...i say ever...
but after what i had gone through these few months,
especially this semester, i had changed my point of view.
what had convinced me with this college?
many factors but not the management.
for your information, i am surrounding by Malays which i am the only Chinese girl in this course.
i really uncomfortable with these at first. although i have many Malay friends but i had never experience few months or may be few weeks without speak mandarin. as the time had gone, i realized something. i found that some of them really take care about me. for those who had learned mandarin in primary school, they even try to speak mandarin with me (they are Indians and Malays)...i really appreciate it for making me felt that i am not alone at there. touched~
in this semester too, i felt being love and respect. i don't know whether it is my "faulty feeling" or not,
i just felt that the seniors are treating me like their sister more than a friend or junior. i like this, these made me felt that we are one huge lovely family. i did feel in this way because my same course friend had ever told me so and i did feel the difference. erm...or this is because i am the "special" species in this course so they treated me so? but i hope that it is my own personality and the comfort ability made it so.
then, i saw some changes on somebody. their spirit had made me energized. their spirit to change positive and taking serious in education are the most encourage me to find out what make them change. next, i found that i also had few changes of myself. first, i start don't really care with what i care so much before. it is not because i do not obey my principle but it just like there is a thing which is more valuable to care about and it makes no differences too if i care so much which can make me hurt myself at last,right?
other than the knowledge gained,i think i had improved psychologically. i am trying to accept something by magnified the pro than the con...but not all...just something that i ever hide or "delete" it from its pro...*i hope somebody will understand what i try to say...haha* after i went through something and get know somebodies, i had made out a statement "sometimes there is no wrong or right in such situation, it just about the comfort ability and suitability. "
excited to turn semester 3~~~
anxious with what will coming soon.
Saturday, May 9, 2015
下午时分
若说人与人之间是靠只言片语来维持的
那么这段关系是多么的脆弱
从古至今
人们都会不断地问
人世间，究竟情为何物？
可是却始终没有一个明确的答案。
竟然连“情”都无法拥有一个注解
那你们还相信承诺吗？
有时候
你们所给予我的承诺
我并不抱太多的期望
但我选择相信你们
相信你们无论做了什么决定
都肯定有你们的原因
无可否认
我也曾食言，也被食言过
曾心痛过，也让人痛心过
但，终是会过的，不是吗？
那些零零碎碎的言语
只有在被遵守后
才是承诺
要不然
只能算是顺风的美言
朋友，
谨记，这些并不是那么重要。。。
Thursday, April 9, 2015
三天两夜之马六甲
7/4/2015
今天起了个大早
提起了前晚准备好的背包就和两个朋友启程了
原本一切都进行得非常顺利时
我们的第一个考验来临了
巴士迟迟未到。。。
要知道，我们可是要分秒必争的啊！
于是乎，我们在太阳底下晒足了一个小时。
不过庆幸的是，我们都有带雨伞哟~
所以无所谓，只是觉得有点对不起双脚。
不过，到后来才知道。。。
这只是折磨双脚的开始。
大约0935时，我们终于抵达了位于bts的巴士总站。
搭了delima的10点钟10令吉的快车
大约1200时，我们到了马六甲巴士总站。
首先，我们要做的，便是去找我们的住所啦！
于是乎，我们搭了巴士到市中心。
万万没想到。。。
我们的马六甲之旅就这样突然的开始了
因为巴士就把我们放在其中一个旅游胜地
当天，我们去了：
1.jonker street...盆栽冰淇凌，鸡饭粒，durian cendol!!!!难以忘怀~~~
2.jonker library...那里有许多关于佛学的书
3.christ house
4.stadhuys
5.dutch graveyard
6.st. paul church
7.a famosa...好小。。。
8.dataran pahlawan
9.mahkota parade...这两个地方纯粹为了躲雨
10.maritim museum...这个嘛。。。晚上外面看去挺美的
11.st. francis xavier church
等等。。。主要的是，我喝了一杯超好喝的coconut shake
8/4/2014
我们今天去了一些各教信徒的崇拜的地方：
1.kpg hulu mosque
2.kpg kling mosque
3.一个印度教。。。名字太复杂了
4.青三亭
5.宝三亭
还有一些名胜地：
1.hang jebat陵墓。。。他的故事。。。好confusing
2.hang li poh well...为了这个，走到脚酸却始终与它擦肩而过，不过幸好最后有遇到
3.抗日英雄纪念碑
4.museum islam melaka
5.museum seni bina
6.light and sound...这喷水池和音乐的结合甚是美丽特别
7.people museum
8.museum cheng ho
9.museum heritage baba nyonya
等等。。。其他的都忘了名字
我们没去menara taming sari因为我们一致认为不值得，
没去river cruise...因为我们都已经沿着那河流徒步而行了。
对了！当晚上我们又去找吃时，我们发现了摩天轮！
加上晚上的夜景，真的很美很美很浪漫。
9/4/2015
起床，搭了巴士回到总站，然后再搭7.70马币的plusliner快车到芙蓉。
在那里，我们原本的计划泡汤了。
原因：那里的交通不便！
所以，鸵鸟没看着，自然生态公园没去着。
不过有件事挺感恩的
到了simpang sri menanti
原本要行走6km山路才能到达的istana sri menanti，
我们只走了2km。
"大"插曲——我们上了森美兰州yb的车。
原本我们都不知道的，
就在车上谈话中知晓。
他为人真的很随和有礼。
到达museum istana sri menanti后，
才知道原来还在维修当中。
因为那110岁的建筑还是需要保养的。
所以我们唯有在外面走走看看。
那里的管理员看到我们三只小猫从yb的车上下去更是吓了一大跳。车牌：5555
随后，我们就跟着yb儿子的车出去simpang了
他的儿子开始时，还半信半疑的说。
不过在短短的几分钟谈话里，
发觉他还是挺好的一个人。
然后我们就搭巴士回总站啦
沿路上，我发觉除了多牛多羊多鹅以外，
我还真的是第一次看到了panggang itik...而且还是整只的。
之后，时间也不早了，也转了几趟交通，终于。。。安全抵达宿舍啦~！
后来想想，若那时没贵人相助，辛辛苦苦走到了那里却又跟你说还在维修中，闲人免进，然后又走回去路口。这怎么还得了啊！！真的太感恩，太感谢了！
这次的马六甲和森美兰之行，
除了走了不懂多少远的路（总觉得我脚要废了）
和得到一些历史知识
还教会我如何独立
更教会我如何感恩。
最后，我想说的是。。。
我明天懒惰洗衣啦~~！！T>T
唯一遗憾的，就是没吃到baba nyonya的美食。
不过没关系，日后到槟城再尝吧~！
今天起了个大早
提起了前晚准备好的背包就和两个朋友启程了
原本一切都进行得非常顺利时
我们的第一个考验来临了
巴士迟迟未到。。。
要知道，我们可是要分秒必争的啊！
于是乎，我们在太阳底下晒足了一个小时。
不过庆幸的是，我们都有带雨伞哟~
所以无所谓，只是觉得有点对不起双脚。
不过，到后来才知道。。。
这只是折磨双脚的开始。
大约0935时，我们终于抵达了位于bts的巴士总站。
搭了delima的10点钟10令吉的快车
大约1200时，我们到了马六甲巴士总站。
首先，我们要做的，便是去找我们的住所啦！
于是乎，我们搭了巴士到市中心。
万万没想到。。。
我们的马六甲之旅就这样突然的开始了
因为巴士就把我们放在其中一个旅游胜地
当天，我们去了：
1.jonker street...盆栽冰淇凌，鸡饭粒，durian cendol!!!!难以忘怀~~~
2.jonker library...那里有许多关于佛学的书
3.christ house
4.stadhuys
5.dutch graveyard
6.st. paul church
7.a famosa...好小。。。
8.dataran pahlawan
9.mahkota parade...这两个地方纯粹为了躲雨
10.maritim museum...这个嘛。。。晚上外面看去挺美的
11.st. francis xavier church
等等。。。主要的是，我喝了一杯超好喝的coconut shake
8/4/2014
我们今天去了一些各教信徒的崇拜的地方：
1.kpg hulu mosque
2.kpg kling mosque
3.一个印度教。。。名字太复杂了
4.青三亭
5.宝三亭
还有一些名胜地：
1.hang jebat陵墓。。。他的故事。。。好confusing
2.hang li poh well...为了这个，走到脚酸却始终与它擦肩而过，不过幸好最后有遇到
3.抗日英雄纪念碑
4.museum islam melaka
5.museum seni bina
6.light and sound...这喷水池和音乐的结合甚是美丽特别
7.people museum
8.museum cheng ho
9.museum heritage baba nyonya
等等。。。其他的都忘了名字
我们没去menara taming sari因为我们一致认为不值得，
没去river cruise...因为我们都已经沿着那河流徒步而行了。
对了！当晚上我们又去找吃时，我们发现了摩天轮！
加上晚上的夜景，真的很美很美很浪漫。
9/4/2015
起床，搭了巴士回到总站，然后再搭7.70马币的plusliner快车到芙蓉。
在那里，我们原本的计划泡汤了。
原因：那里的交通不便！
所以，鸵鸟没看着，自然生态公园没去着。
不过有件事挺感恩的
到了simpang sri menanti
原本要行走6km山路才能到达的istana sri menanti，
我们只走了2km。
"大"插曲——我们上了森美兰州yb的车。
原本我们都不知道的，
就在车上谈话中知晓。
他为人真的很随和有礼。
到达museum istana sri menanti后，
才知道原来还在维修当中。
因为那110岁的建筑还是需要保养的。
所以我们唯有在外面走走看看。
那里的管理员看到我们三只小猫从yb的车上下去更是吓了一大跳。车牌：5555
随后，我们就跟着yb儿子的车出去simpang了
他的儿子开始时，还半信半疑的说。
不过在短短的几分钟谈话里，
发觉他还是挺好的一个人。
然后我们就搭巴士回总站啦
沿路上，我发觉除了多牛多羊多鹅以外，
我还真的是第一次看到了panggang itik...而且还是整只的。
之后，时间也不早了，也转了几趟交通，终于。。。安全抵达宿舍啦~！
后来想想，若那时没贵人相助，辛辛苦苦走到了那里却又跟你说还在维修中，闲人免进，然后又走回去路口。这怎么还得了啊！！真的太感恩，太感谢了！
这次的马六甲和森美兰之行，
除了走了不懂多少远的路（总觉得我脚要废了）
和得到一些历史知识
还教会我如何独立
更教会我如何感恩。
最后，我想说的是。。。
我明天懒惰洗衣啦~~！！T>T
唯一遗憾的，就是没吃到baba nyonya的美食。
不过没关系，日后到槟城再尝吧~！
Saturday, March 14, 2015
second semester
第二学期
总觉得来这里不是身为一位学生
而是如何当个家庭主妇
如何为人子女
为了满足我环游西马的欲望
我这学期大多带便当
菜也要自己搭巴士去购买
谁准备的呢？
当然是自己
这样我才懂得
以前爸爸妈妈早起为我准备便当的辛苦
这是需要多大的毅力啊
衣服必须手洗
因为用洗衣机太贵了
所以每天早上都得爬的早点
这样才不会手忙脚乱的和室友争浴厕
这里没有人肉闹钟
你错过了时间
就是错过了一天
没得赖床
没有借口
当然，还得抢个巴士位去学院
这里没依靠
我并不确定是否是好坏
也不知道能不能升华自己
在这里
我只知道
你不努力
你赶不上时间快车
你不坚强
没人当你的支撑柱
tough,but i enjoy...
总觉得来这里不是身为一位学生
而是如何当个家庭主妇
如何为人子女
为了满足我环游西马的欲望
我这学期大多带便当
菜也要自己搭巴士去购买
谁准备的呢？
当然是自己
这样我才懂得
以前爸爸妈妈早起为我准备便当的辛苦
这是需要多大的毅力啊
衣服必须手洗
因为用洗衣机太贵了
所以每天早上都得爬的早点
这样才不会手忙脚乱的和室友争浴厕
这里没有人肉闹钟
你错过了时间
就是错过了一天
没得赖床
没有借口
当然，还得抢个巴士位去学院
这里没依靠
我并不确定是否是好坏
也不知道能不能升华自己
在这里
我只知道
你不努力
你赶不上时间快车
你不坚强
没人当你的支撑柱
tough,but i enjoy...
Monday, March 9, 2015
观点
来这里读书几个月了
还记得上次放假回去时
有个人问过我 我在这里看到了什么
我觉得……我还没认认真真地回答过他这个问题
在这里
说真的
除了课业还是家常便饭以外
其他的事物都让我改观
至于这是否是件好事呢？
见仁见智吧！
在这远离故乡的地方
我终于明白妈妈平日嘴里常说的那句话
“别太容易相信人”
这里的人
不知是该说神奇还是奇怪
对于他们
当个双面人，墙头草简直是个专属他们的领域
若太容易对他们掏心掏肺
最终只会让自己没心没肺
在这里
我不否认曾遇过一些好人，真诚的人
但有些却让我看清这社会对他们的摧残
太多的事故教化他们如何去虚伪，做作，背叛
对于这群人，我真的深表怜悯之意
当然，我也许也是他们其中的一个
而这些，都是我以前从未体悟过的
我的社会观都随着我的所见所闻而渐渐摧毁
儿时的幻想也被现实给打败
真诚，难寻。
真心，难遇。
童话世界真的不存在。
我真的好想回到那个谁都可以相信，待人都是真诚，无需掩饰的世界。
有些话，不能说，
有些话，不该说，
有些话，不想说，
有些话，懒惰说，
有些话，没人听你说，
这些话，只能藏在心里让时间把他们给淹没……
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Monday, January 19, 2015
母校
母校
之所以成为母校
是因为
它
孕育了我们
我有三个母校
罗东幼稚园
罗东中华公学
罗东政中
罗东，就是我第二的家
母校
一个打好我基础
一个灌输我常识
一个树立我人格
今天去了我的国中
挺缅怀过去的日子
所做过的事
所见过的人
所遇到的困难
所经历的风雨
所克服的难题
所拥有的甜蜜
所得到的智慧
所收获的一切
没了它
肯定成就不了今日的我
我很感恩
我进了那间学校
那间被其他学生认为是地狱的学校
我很感恩
我遇见了那些老师
为我淘尽所有的师者
今天结伴的去那里
挺欢乐的
学校变得不多
但往日的老师却转走了不少
地尤存但人已非
那里的每一个角落
似乎都有着专属自己的回忆
昔日的同学
都不知身在何方了
遇见了一个我又爱又恨的老师
一位生物学老师
他还是一样
只是现在站在他眼前的这群学生
每个都读着不同的课系
我还是一样的尊敬他
还是觉得他挺疼我的 嘻嘻
还遇上以前教过我的几位老师
我也还是很尊敬他们的
他们都没变
还都是一样
为学生们奔波劳累着
说回今天结伴的大家
有几个月不见了
变了吗？
似乎都没怎么变到
突然想到
不知道十年后大家还会这样聚在一起回母校吗
无论如何
我都很珍惜这一张合照
照片无需多
有意义就好
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